There is a tear...

There is a Tear...

There is a tear embedded in my heart
A lonely tear so cold and so dark
A tear is embedded and taken hold
A lonely tear fills my poor empty soul

There is a tear no one can see
A lonely tear sobs in deep misery
A tear with no hope for tomorrow
A lonely tear consumed in hopeless sorrow

There is a tear inside my tortured chest
A lonely tear longing for a gentle caress
A tear is shed for someone to hold
A lonely tear which I cannot control

There is a tear deep inside, so cold
A lonely tear has engulfed my soul
A tear which cries for someone to care
A lonely tear so full of despair

There is a tear which drowns my heart
A lonely tear for a world fallen apart
A tear has been cried with misery and pain
A lonely tear whose love was in vain.

Lonely heart...

A lonely heart cries...

A lonely heart cries for thee.

come to me dear 'n set me free.

let us float on passions embrace.

a love so true

it can't be replaced.

another lonely night, another day i awake.

'n yet i feel you all around me,

you are the air that i breathe.

the love that we make.

the fire raging deep inside of me,

you are the only one

who can put out those flames 'n set me free.

my love for you burns so bright,

'n i bast in our love

that we have held so tight.

never shall i part with you again.

for the love we share will carry us to the end.

a lonely heart cries for the...

I am feeling so low...

I am feeling so low...

Today I am feeling so low as you are not with me,
I miss you every moment wherever I may be.
My mind sets no where and just thinks about you,
I want to talk a lot with you but our talks are due.
My lips are trembling and calling your name,
I cannot see you in front of me and I m going through this pain.
My tears are in trauma should they flow out or lay inside,
they want to roll down my cheeks but could not decide.
My one hand holds the other as it cannot hold yours,
It wanders for only your warm touch , I m sure.
My heart beats gets faster wishing you might be here,
giving me the feel of joy, love and care.
How much I love you is all i know,
I just feel it and I don’t want to show.
I miss you with every beat of my heart, no doubt
you are the only one of whom i can think about... !

Invisible...

Invisible

I feel alone in this world, no one understands me,
I’m on the edge, I’m about to jump, can’t anyone see?
I’m invisible to this world, 'n everyone in it,
All I am is a tiny little speck on a big huge planet,
My only friend in this world is the darkness of night,
It’s only here for awhile, but it makes things alright,
My friends 'n my family have all gone away,
They pretended to help, but they wouldn’t stay,
They said that they’d help me, they said that they’d be there,
But in the end, when I really needed them, they didn’t care,
They told me they’ve tried, but they’ve given up on me now,
They left me alone to figure life out some how,
I don’t trust my self to do what is right,
But then comes darkness again, everything will be alright,
Darkness is not happy, but it’s better than light,
It shows me the truth of my everyday life,
It asks me the question of why I’m still here,
But deep in my heart, the answers not clear,
Why am I still here, when my life is nothing but pain,
The darkness, it tells me, I have nothing to gain,
I don’t know when, but the day will come,
When I leave, 'n say, goodbye to everyone,
The day will be sad, but it wont last long,
People will go on living as if nothing was wrong,
But nothing was wrong, because i was never really there,
Same as before, all I’ll be is a whisper in the air.. !

I Never Deserved You...

I Never Deserved You

"Come to me", I cry.
But she walks away.
Her ignorance shatters my bones 'n leaves me for dead.
"Don't leave me here."
Yet she does not turn.
My lungs deflate, relieving me of any remaining strength.

"You're dead to me."
She mutters under her breath.
'n all that I care for in this world comes crashing down.

I sit alone in the corner.
My eyes red 'n wet.
A heart that soon stops beating,
Lies heavy with regret.

'n though I wish to chase you,
'n though I wish to scream,
I stay here 'n accept my fate.
For you were just a dream.

To me you are perfection.
A fantasy come true.
It never would have lasted.
I never deserved you.. !

I am sad because I miss you 'n love you...

I'm sad because I miss you and I love you...

I'm not Angry
Because we broke up,

I'm sad because
I can't let you go..

I'm not angry at you
for not loving me,

I'm angry with me
for still loving you..

I'm not angry that
I lost you,

I'm sad because
I once had you..

I'm not angry that
I can't have you,

I'm sad because
I know what I'm missing..

I'm not angry that
you've moved on,

I'm sad because
I can't..

I'm not angry that
you won't come back,

I'm sad because
I keep hoping you will..

I'm not angry
because I hate you 'n don't want to,

I'm sad because
I miss you 'n I love you.. !

Painful scream...

Feeling the Emptiness

Feeling the Emptiness 'n cold
I'm grieving for always
the tears is cannot be dry
all this pain is suffer my self
you say you was love me
you say you care to me
you give me a smile but you tore it apart

there is nothing but silence now
tears 'n pain is belongs to me
i screaming calling you
but you don't hear it
you leave me alone
left a wounds on my heart

you pretend like nothing happened
you see me like a stranger
you kill me by your lies love

I'm standing in dark world
the sun will not rise again
the birds will not singing again
cause they know,
they know i am here so broken heart

I was thought to suicide
but that will not make you love me
now i am not commit to suicide
but now i can't feel love again
cause my heart has been dead.. !

Slow Tears...

Slow Tears

I look up
as a tear rolls slowly
down my cheek
I think about better days
'n wonder if I'll feel that way again
you look at me
with those eyes I know so well
always serious, so deep 'n insightful
as though you're always in control
But not today
not now
Now you look so scared
like for once you don't have the answer
I gaze at you
looking deep into those hazel eyes
Hoping to understand
why you've said those things you did
I wonder for a moment
if this is all a dream
if I shall wake in the morning
'n be relieved
you look at me
with a confusion I have never seen
slowly pull me towards you
'n wipe the tears from my cheek.. !

When I m Dead...

When I am Dead,
Your Tears May Flow,
But I Wont Know,
Cry For Me Now, Instead..


When I am Dead,
You Will Send Flowers,
But I Wont See,
Send them Now, Instead..


When I am Dead,
You Will Say Words Of Praise,
But I Wont Hear,
Praise Me Now, Instead..


When I M Dead,
You Will forget My Faults,
But I Wont Know,
Forget them Now, Instead.. !

Am I Alone?

I get a funny feeling,
it comes from deep inside.
I get all mad 'n angry,
wanting to go 'n hide.

My doctor calls it depression,
my dad says it's just me.
But the thoughts 'n feelings,
no one will ever be able to see.

Some say I'm psycho,
some say I'm just weird.
It's like I'm a different person,
'n the old me just disappeared.

I get really edgy,
I want to commit suicide real bad.
Then I get a headache,
followed by feeling sad.

I wish I could get help,
I wish it would go away.
Maybe if I keep praying real hard,
it will some day.. !

Your Ignorance slashes My heart all the time...

Your Ignorance slashes My heart all the time..
'n the Pain is now just too much to bear..

Just promise me that u'll be mine...
I wont ask you to keep it.. ♥
Just say that you'll come back to me..
I wont ask you to return

Just say that you still Love me like you did before...
I will never ask for a proof...
Just say that you miss me the way I miss you...
'n you want me to come back..

I promise I will cum back to You
forgetting everything that you did to me ♥

Never Alone...

Never Alone

I feel you in the Morning
When at first I awake
Your thought is with me
With each decision I make


You'd been around Forever
Since the first breath I took
Now I have to go on alone
But for love, I need not look


Cause by what you Bestowed
In our short time together
Will last in my heart
Forever 'n ever


Although you've left
'n now walk above
I'm never alone
I'm wrapped in your love


Enjoy now your long waited reward
Feel peace that your love continues on
What was taught to me, will be taught to mine
Cause you live on in me even after you've gone.. !

I Will be here waiting for you...

You've let me down,
You've let me believe,
You've walked away 'n You let me grieve.
You told me your life, 'n I told you mine,
We told each other everything would be fine.

Secret loving was the game that we played,
Leaving Me with a Heart now frayed.

You had your chance,
You had to decide, Once again you chose him, It killed me inside.
I am not Brave enough to tell You,
I'm not Strong enough to Walk Away,
You will know in Time,

Hopefully One Day.....

One day your gonna realize what You really Missed,
The way you took My heart 'n Crushed it in Your Fist ... ♥ ♥

Its sad that I am so vulnerable to You,
After all You put Me through.
But I cant walk away, Your all that I want,
so I will wait until I have our love to flaunt.

So I guess I'll be another One to add to the list,
but at least this time,
I'll take my heart from your fist I know One day well come through so when You finally wake up,
I'll be here waiting for you ... ♥ ♥ !!

A Final Goodbye...

Let's hold our hands 'n say good bye
To all that's been our reasons to cry
'n let's forget the things that are done
As some days from now the earth will die.
Let's not think of the past again
For now we are, beneath the sky...

Let's kiss again 'n say good bye
To sad stories of the weeping sky
Let's forget that we ever have to part
For all shall part with time gone by.
'n let's call life, the time we have
'n when we part we'll say we die...

Let's love this day,the days ahead
With roses of white, pink 'n red
We share the love we have so loved
We know we'll love till we are dead.
So,Just live 'n wait till our time is up
Then smile with love 'n say Good Bye.. !

No one is mine May be im not fine... !

No one is mine May be im not fine

No one is mine
May be I'm not fine,

No one cares 4 me
No one has tears 4 me,

No one believes me
Everyone says leave me,

If I ever cry
No one wil even ask why?

and If I ever die
No one will cry,

No one says take care
Everyone says I don't care,

When I need someone 4 myself
I find no one 4help,

I don't know why?
Maybe talking to me they feel shy..!!

No one is mine
Maybe I m not fine. .. :-|

The Greatest Pain...

The greatest pain in life is not to die, but to be ignored.
To lose the person you love so much to another who doesn't care at all.
To have someone you care so about so much throw a party...
'n not tell you about it.
When your favorite person on earth neglects to invite you to his graduation.
To have people think that you don't care.

The greatest pain in life, is not to die, but to be forgotten.
To be left in the dust after another's great achievement.
To never get a call from a friend, just saying "hi".
When you show someone your innermost thoughts 'n they laugh in your face.
For friends to always be too busy to console you when you need someone to lift your spirits.
When it seems like the only person who cares about you, is you.

Life is full of pain, but does it ever get better?
Will people ever care about each other, 'n make time for those who are in need?
Each of us has a part to play in this great show we call life.
Each of us has a duty to mankind to tell our friends we love them.
If you do not care about your friends you will not be punished.
You will simply be ignored... forgotten... as you have done to others.

This poem was written by a young girl who committed suicide.
Perhaps if the people surrounding her had shown a little more
love, 'n had paid more attention to her, her death could have been prevented.
Remember that when going through life, you can't judge a sad, lonely, or
suicidal person by their facial expression. You need to get to know
each person you come in contact with, cherish your friendship with them, 'n
show them that you care.

I hope you all know I'm always here for you.. !

I still don't believe that I have lost you...

I still don't believe that I have lost you,
lost you forever..
I know you still remember sometimes those days when we were friends
'n I believe, at least from my side it is not just a mere past..
Now I have really started missing you in every corners of my heart where sometimes ago you used to stay..
I wish that I could hold you now...

I wish that I could touch you now...
I wish that I could talk to you...
be with you somehow....

I never could understand-
'Is loving someone is such a big crime that I have to suffer my lifelong??'

I used to wake up every morning in the hope that what is going around is just a terrible dream,
It will be alright when I will open my eyes.
But it wasn't so.

Now every night I am used to have you in my dreams. Where you come 'n smile - touching me silently.
Where our eyes speak only the language of pains
'n I break into tears in your lap saying-

"Why don't you ever feel-I am incomplete without you ..
If you love me only in my dreams,
Let me be asleep forever."

Do you know one thing,
Yes I will tell today,
I will shout,
it doesn't matter you will listen or not
but I will cry tonight that-
"Today 'n always, beyond tomorrow,
I need you beside me,Always as my best friend,
lover 'n forever soul mate.".. !

Do you know how it feels...

Do you know how it feels...

Do you know how it feels
When someone throws you out of their life for someone else..?

Do you Know how it feels
When you want to die with each breath..?

Do you know how it feels
wen you someone else snatching the person you loved the most..?

Do you know how it feels..
when you Have to say "I'm fine" 'n fake a smile
But Nothing is OK at all..?

Do you know how it feels
when you try hard to smile but tears fall unknowingly..?

Do you know how it feels to know..
that the I Only wish you had will never be fulfilled..?

I have gone through all of these..
Just Because Of you
'n in Return...
I will be Loving You Forever with My Broken Heart...

I'll be Loving You with all these Broken Pieces..
But my love will be Stronger than Any Unbroken Heart..
No One Can Love You Like I Can.. !

Can We Still Be Friends?

Can We Still Be Friends?

I was cold and hurting
lost out in the night
wandering and searching
for heaven's light

I saw the night sky clearing
when you spread your rainbow wings
But little did I know
what joy you would bring

From that moment on
a friendship did start
you kissed away my tears
and sheltered my heart

I bless the day God
sent him from above
But then I grew fearful
for I had fallen in love

I told you this feeling
and what did you say?
You said you liked our friendship
and that's how it would stay

I cried for a friendship I thought I lost
But then felt your warm, gentle hand
You then whispered in my ear
that by my side you'll forever stand.. !

I tried hard to get over with this pain...

I tried hard to get over with pain...

I tried hard to get over with this pain..
But I really couldn't help it...
Tried to accept u just as a Friend...
But the Love I have inside for You
Its So True to forget...

Though I Died inside when you told me
how much you Love Her...
How you Cry for her...
How you Long for her love...

But you never feel the pain of my dying soul..
How eachday I broke myself to support you...
How I had to wish that you get her back...
Still Hoping that someday you'll choose me instead...

Someday I'll smile when you get her Love...
'n wish you a happy Life where I'm NOT with u..
I constantly fear that day of loosing You Forever...
But Till then I Can Keep Hoping.. :(

I pray every night 'n it isn't for me...
It's for someone else..
Sometimes I feel like I'll never feel the same again
Sometimes I just want to watch the world burn...
This empty world where you cant be Mine..!